Me Myself and I
““I love Jesus, and a I cuss a little.””
I would like to introduce to… me. I’ve come to realize I don’t think I’ve properly introduced myself even though I’ve had this blog for years. I thought it would be a good time to fix that. I’ve gone through about 15 traits that I think I have or others have called out in me. I would love to know what you would add or if you think I got something wrong drop it down in the comments below.
I’m a loyal person and once I like you ( you being a brand, artist, friend, and tv show) I’m generally loyal to you. It takes a lot to break my loyalty which can sometimes be to my detriment.
My work ethic is top notch. This is one of the few things I will brag about myself about. I will work hard because I saw great examples from my parents and it’s something that God has called christians to.
I love the giving and receiving of hugs. Hugs are my love language and if you want to show me love just give me a long hug. It’s so hard right now not being able to get a hug from someone. Social distancing is killing my hugging game and I’ll be glad when its over so I can get one. I can’t remember the last time I got a hug. It’s been a least three weeks and I’m thinking a hug was probably at least a month ago.
I can be caring person. There have been so many times though that I wish I was better at this one. I will on occasion think of people but wont reach out to the because I think I’ll be bothering them.
I had someone call me faithful and I wasn’t sure about it. I looked up the definition to see if I fit it. Siri told me it meant loyal, constant, and steady. I believe I’m these things but it’s also hard for me to accept it and I’m not quite sure why. I guess I need help believing this one. I am loyal to the people around me and I constantly show up and do what I need to. I guess the one I have the problem with is steady. I guess I’m that but I’m not sure why I think I’m not but it might be because being at home a lot by myself right now is getting to me.
Like a lot of people I can be my own worst critic. I often look at my work and see what is wrong with it. I can get in my own way and I don’t try to do things because the critic in me tells me that I can’t do it. It holds me back from doing things to the best of my ability because I don’t think I’m able to do it. My inner critic doesn’t myself allow to grow in something. This has been changing slowly the last couple of years but it's something that still want to improve in.
I have often been called adventurous because I’m willing to go to new places and try new things and I often go do them by myself. I don’t think much about it and I think that it's mostly think it's normal to me. I didn’t think it was strange until it was pointed out to me.
The definition for joyful is feeling, expressing or causing great pleasure and happiness. I am a walking joy bomb when I’m emotionally healthy. I have a smile that can brighten others day or so I am told. I think my smile is one of my best features.
Consistence in the person I am and in my ability to show up. People can count that I’ll be there and be some one who is the same.
Kindness is something that comes fairly naturally to me
Genuine is authentic and I have had several people tell me that I’m genuine. This makes me so glad because I want to be authentic. I want to be the same person nobody whom I’m around.
I’m a creative person. My go to art from is photography. I love drawing but I’m bad it and I do it just for me. I love editing videos together. I almost when in to doing video editing as a job. I still might do that. I just have to learn more about editing to try to do it as a job but for now I just doing it as a hobby.
One of the top words I think people would use to describe me would be goofy or silly. I’m not afraid to make myself look stupid. I think this helps me connect with people but especially kids. I am naturally wired to do and say goofy things like wear onesies out in public. I play it up when I’m feeling insecure, anxious or I want distract people from me. When I want to distract people from me its usually because of me feeling insecure or I don’t want them to show them how smart I am or my talent in photography.
I often fall into just being goofy that people don’t know that I can be thoughtful and have things to say. I can use brain for then just coming up with good jokes. I think showing that I have substance comes from a fear of actually being smart. If people have an expectation of me being smart then when I enviable say something stupid that I will loose respect of others. I don’t want the expectation of having to have answers for others. I have a fear that I’m actually smart. I don’t consider myself smart because I was in special education from 7th grade until I was a senior in high school. I took that I struggled learning to be that I wasn’t smart. I don’t find learning to be as a struggle now but I don’t know if that’s because I get to choose what I learn and how I get to learn it. I was recently told that I have a fast processing speed. I didn’t ever think about it but if you had asked me before she told me that I would have said I have a slow or normal processing speed.
My humor can take people off guard sometimes. I will say something that I think is funny and then several minutes later people will start laughing because they just realized what I said. I will learn your sense of humor and tailor my jokes to your humor. If I don’t say a whole lot of jokes around you or try to make you laugh is because I’m filter is on high and I’m not sure you will find anything I would say funny. It might be also that we see each other in a professional setting and I have my filter settings to be appropriate.
